we were hoping for a boy.

i normally only have a small window in which to write blogs about my dreams. however, last night's REM excursions almost threw my waking life off kilter so i am able to recall bits a lot more clearly than usual.

i dreamt i was pregnant. with a baby. me. pregnant. not i-took-the-test-oh-crap pregnant. we're talking glowing-with-child-pregnant. i could probably end with that because for me that idea is disturbing enough. i am pretty conscious of what my body is capable of, and i do not foresee it housing and hatching a 7lb egg. the idea of pregnancy is kind of terrifying to me. i don't exactly have a lifestyle (or funds) that is baby, child, or even other adult friendly...though, i have crossed off a lot of bad habits from my list. anyways, i digress.

in my dream, i lived in DC, which looked like downtown cleveland, with three other roommates. all of whom were fairly attractive men. none of whom knocked me up. in fact, a large part of my dream was me trying to figure out whose child i was carrying. i would walk around town with a gentle hand around my apparent swell and thinking about solving what should be an embarrasing mystery. but, i wasn't embarrassed at all. i didn't even care on a simple level. i was pretty content with my life. my boys were throwing me a baby shower (yeaaah. 3 men and a baby.). and at night, i would climb up into my bunk bed and lay next to whoever that cute roommate of mine was and we would try and guess the father's name. my baby daddy's name was never revealed. and i don't really want to know.

not sure if my dream life is trying to make a statement about my waking life. i don't think i'm a floozy, but there is a bit of truth to the 'who gives a crap' mentality that i have developed. oh, and the i-can't-remember-who-i-go-out-with-anymore mentality. and possibly the oh-i'm-fucked?-let's-eat-cake mentality. it's amusing how some dead end journeys still creep into my dreams.

when i woke up, i made sure my belly button was in upright position and here i am.

about to fall asleep and get maury to find out who my baby daddy is. haha.